Grace Like rain...

Just had to post tonight. It's rained ALL day. Ok most of the day. I did get a 30 minute run in before it was raining and the air was thick and the clouds were thin, music was good and the stars were gorgeous :)

So whenever it rains all I can think of this song and the line "Grace like rain falls down on me..." The last night I heard this song was the night before June 15, 2010, the day my divorce was final. So that AM I wake up in a fog as I had wrestled and fought with God, pleaded, begged even that it wasn't for real the whole day and night before. Well it was real.

Went through the motions of the AM and got in my car. As I headed towards Dublin the darkest clouds ever rolled in and before I was at work it was pouring rain. Rained while I was at work and by the time I was at the courthouse in town by 9:30 (I believe) still raining. Go to court with this odd peace, this odd pressence with me as I sat as little Alisa alone at my own attorney table. It was done. What I thought would be forever was no more.

But it's no longer raining when I step out of the courthouse.

As I drive on 377 towards Granbury I remember pulling over and texting a friend to say "I just left behind the darkest clouds and rain but am driving into the most beautiful blue sky with fluffly white clouds." He texted back, "Do not LET your hearts be troubled..." I had read the same thing the night before and in John 14:27 "Peace I leave you; my peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

The image was humbling. God's grace like rain falling down on me, little ole me who couldn't even make a marriage last. He still loved me, He still cared enough to let me know it would be alright. I cried as we drove towards Fort Worth but not tears of sorrow, tears of awe and peace. And I've never looked back to those dark clouds. Ok maybe I've glanced in the rear view mirror a time or two but it doesn't take me much to refocus on God and His awesome plans for me to know that it's going to be all right. Jesus just says "Come" to Peter out on the lake and when Peter looked in the rearview mirror so to say he simply cried "Lord save me." And He did. Wow!!

So why am I posting this tonight. Don't really know. Makes me think of a song "I'm not trying to be something I'm not. This is all I've got. I wear it on my sleeve." I guess all I have as a witness to the world is my past and what Jesus has done in my today to help me overcome it. And I pray each night that as much of a future as He gives me I will use each breathe to glorify Him. Someone needed to read this, or maybe I just needed to type it.

I ask yet again as I do with each closing... What if it changed your life? And I answer yet again today He has changed mine.

Great Night, take a minute to listen to the rain and remember... "Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, but about learning to dance in the rain!" I hope you dance!!