Give me Jesus

Interesting back and forth last night about kids and medication with one of  the ex's. She stated "Don't treat me like a kid" with the intention of saying your questioning my parenting decisions is questioning me. No,  questioning your decisions is that you should have been parents under one roof, sharing these decisions, discussing things like medication and schooling for your kids, but you are not. You now have perceived control because you have physical custody and expect no input from their father. He lost SOOOO much in the divorce. He lost the daily opportunity to interact with, guide, lead, support, encourage and love his kids (period), which he desires so greatly. You gained control (perceived control), which you desire so greatly.

So then up this morning reading the book of Numbers and then Psalm 90. Psalm 90 says "teach me to  number my days." Situations like the above can make your blood boil, if you let it. Situations like the above can make you angry, frustrated and upset for days about past and current decisions  if you let it. Situations like the above can steal your love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control, if you let it. These things have no law against them... you can never be too (fill in the blank.) If our days our numbered I want them filled with the latter, not the former.

Then the song "Give me Jesus" by Jeremy Camp keeps playing in my head. I sit quietly to pray for the above situation, and situations to come and all I can hear is "give me Jesus, you can have all this world, just give me Jesus" In situations like the above, my response has to be "give me Jesus." The world wants to fight us for control of every situation. The world wants to build walls, put up facades and smile pretty to create the illusion of control.

My own divorce,and losing all the control I thought I had, taught me,  "Just give me Jesus" because when push comes to shove... you've never seen a hearse pulling a U-haul or fifth wheel travel trailer so all the family could go with them :) Everything we fight so hard to control, our lives, our kids lives, our ex'spouse's lives, whoever, whatever... just leads to frustration, anger, hatred, and loneliness.

When I gave my life and that control to Jesus, I realized He is all I need.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Dca0P7w9ZQ

What if giving it all to Jesus, you realized He was all you need? What if it changed your life?