Can't go to sleep. Been in bed heaven for a long time and can't stop thinking... "What if I don't wake up in the AM?" OK why am I thinking that you ask? I'm not worrying that I'm not going to wake up in the AM but I'm reading a book called "Crazy Love" by Frances Chan and chapter 2 talks about this. Something I've thought about and questioned for a few years now. What is the point of this life? It's such a short span and in 2 or three generations after you die, no one even remembers you?
So about 2 years ago I realized it's about preparing for eternity. The every day stress and almost mechanical routines we go through each day can become blah and too routine. Do we take the time each day to marvel at the work of His hands? Have you noticed the big white fluffy clouds lately? Have you sat for a few extra minutes tucking your kiddo in trying to memorize every detail of her face by the light of the glow worm? Have you lived with a passion for this life because you realize it is preparing you for eternity with God?
Tears are running down my cheeks as I type this in the dark with my glasses on so forgive any typos. I'll have to proof read it in the AM.
But did you get what I'm talking about? Do you understand that this moment, this very breath is all you get. There is no promise of tomorrow, no way to return to even 5 seconds ago and yet we live like our story is never ending. It does end here on Earth and what are we doing here to be prepared to meet our King? Are we living a life that glorifies His name with every action and with every ounce of our being, which is after all His gift to us, "life and life more abundantly"?
Dear friends I so sincerely and deeply pray that you get it. What if it changed your life started as a process for me to express what I'm learning as my faith grows and my reliance on God here on Earth grows. But what if it isn't about me? What if it is all about Him? Is my life here and now pointing towards Him? Do people I meet, strangers and friends, know the passion of my heart and know the love I have for my God?
What if I don't wake up tomorrow? Be here, now! Dear friends... be here, now! And in being here, now, embrace and hold tight to the truths that our God loves us and someday we will stand before His thrown and answer to all the charges of sin against us. I pray today dear friend that the blood of Christ that covers all our sin will be what sets you free.
Jesus said, "Come" to which Peter would then step out in faith on to the water. Peter's faith would waver and he started to sink. Peter says, "Lord save me."
Through the tears I ask "What if IT changed your life?"
Changing my life everyday, I seem to be looking at life, family, and friends in a different way. One thing I know now is God gave Abby to our family for a reason and he loves her. I am working on looking at her disorder in a positive way. Brenden and Abby are the joy of our lives. Hope this all makes since.
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